Showing posts with label miscarriage. Show all posts
Showing posts with label miscarriage. Show all posts

Friday, January 18, 2013

A New Art Beginning

Over the pass weeks my thoughts for my art and my surroundings have changed
dramatically... in a good way I sense...
I still have my sad moments of losing my baby...but it's more now like I see
the happiness, the wonder of life, how someone you never pictured in your life
can bring joy and excitement to your life...even if it was for a moment

 I feel like my mind has been cleared, like I have awaken or expanded in a way
I'm not good at writing or expressing my thoughts through words, but here's a try

For a few years now, I have painted vintage images from old photos
They were figurative, full of color, some may say "visually understanding"
I painted what I saw....

I don't feel like painting something in this form anymore
I appreciate that series, but I feel the eager of painting what I feel now...

To be honest, I never really knew how to comprehend abstract art before, I knew
that I enjoyed the compositions or colors, but deep inside I didn't really decipher what I was
seeing, feeling when I viewed the pieces, until recently when I
started writing poems again

I see my art going towards a mix of minimalist/abstract expressionist
I want to strip it all off and bring it back to the basics
I want to create pieces that evoke emotion

The pictures I selected are inspiration for me, especially the last
De Kooning photos, I love the soft colors and strokes of those pieces

I will try to post more of my art as I am making it..... after all that's
why my blog is called "I Art Fashion"

Usually I don't write a lot on my posts, but
this post is important to me
I hope I made sense :)

Have a great weekend

-Julia-
























Monday, December 10, 2012

Weekend News

This Saturday my love and I received the news that our little
baby passed away.
I went into the hospital because I started bleeding and had some cramping, they did an
ultrasound and I knew something wasn't right.
I felt the bad news coming near and near.
All noise around me become so faint.
My heart was beating so fast and when they informed me that 
our little baby's heart stopped beating, my heart stopped beating...

It's like the whole world becomes blurry and suddenly you feel so empty, so so empty
An empty feeling that hurts deep inside
I could not look my love in the eye...I just felt guilty...

I would have been 13 weeks today
Even though this time is hard for both my love and I, being together
has been very helpful
He has made this whole process much more manageable

We are both positive in the future and know one day
we will be thrilled to welcome our baby girl/boy

To all my family and friends, thank you all for the support
Sharing my experience is healing and hope that this post can help
anyone that has gone through this as well.

Thank you for stopping by

-Julia-